Best First Kiss

Kiss is an amazing feeling that touches peoples heart when I was a teenager I never kissed or even felt in love I’ve always ask my friends how does it feels like some ones kissing you? They just smile at me and I also ask my self why we need people need to kissed? Its funny feeling but true I never been kissed or in love until I reached 20. Until one moment when I hang out with my best friend together with her boyfriend we went to a party with our classmate and friend .his boy friends best friend came and he introduced his best friend on me. I just smile and go back chatting with my classmates every one of my friends know that I was a man hater I hate dating and hang out with all guys. At first I thought he was a gay because him with our gay friends chatting and I think there something’s going with them. I was laughing and all of our friends chatting about their issue. I noticed he staring at me but I just ignore him thinking I doesn’t matter any way his gay maybe he just insecure of my beauty. After that part we hang out with my best friend, his boy friend and his best friend. i never noticed that my best friend and his guy had a planned they just leave me with his friend we chat with each other we drink but I make sure that I never drunk to many . Then as we chat he proposed that he like me… I was laughing and I tell him how can you like me in fact you’re a gay…? Then I keep laughing because a can trust a gay friends rather than a guy coz I really hated guys. . But then he kissed me in my lips for 30 seconds… I was so…..So shocked!! My whole body was freezing my arms and legs was freezing I could not even raised my finger I. I was so blank , I could not breath… after he kissed me he tell me how he feel towards me then he hug me so gently as I feel his heart when he hug me I feel his sincerity to me and I remember what my friend told me that “when some one tell you that he loves you listen to his heart rather than what he speak then you know that person really loves you. Then I found out its true … I could not speak, I was mute until I’ve got home I could not sleep keep thinking of what happed for the first time in my life I feel that I’m special, I keep smiling with no reason and for the first time all my negative thought about a guy was gone, for the first time I appreciate every guy I met.. Everything was change .I thought its enough for me to be alone. But I was wrong being with some one makes you happy and give meaning of life; it gives inspiration everyday of our life. Because of that first kiss every things change on me. Early morning I saw him standing outside our home I was shocked he after that night he doesn’t go home instead waiting whole night standing waiting for me… Waiting for my answer, so I told him “what should I say? I don’t know what to say” I don’t know how I feel towards you? So I told him… Go home take some rest… give me time I need to think of it many times… Don’t worry ill let you know my decision… when I saw his face I feel pity on him he looks so tired never sleep the whole night just for me… then when I go back to my room I keep thinking how can I give him an answer ? I’m not sure of my feeling… Did I love him or not? But one thing for sure I like the way he kissed me , I know he really love me but I’m not sure if I really love him m just too.. its not fair if I accept him just because I was pity on him he deserve some one who loves him too.. I go to my best friend house and told him everything she was laughing and shouting so happy she told me that it was her plan they set up me because that guy asking help to talk to me.. I don’t know I supposed to get mad but I was not instead I’m thankful of what she did. She told me that guy admire me for a long time…I’ m so flattered because I never expect that with my attitude always nagged every guy I met but still there some one admire me…so I give him a chance we hang out , watching movie together , we date .. And then we became lovers.